Wednesday, November 12, 2008


As I was posting my WW post a few minutes ago (and it's not so wordless!), it occurred to me for the umpteenth time in the past few days that I have not blogged in a while.

One week to be exact.

Last Thursday our world was turned upside down as my MIL, who had been in the hospital since Sunday, had a major change in her health status.

She went in with an inexpicable rash and such fatigue that she had fallen down and hit her head, to ending up with almost no pulse, and only being able to take about 4 breaths per minute on her own.

Needless to say, the days since have rushed by in a whirlwind - sometimes the minutes seeming to last forever, and other times everything moving so quickly it feels like a big blur.

I have thought about blogging as it is so therapeutic for me.

I have many scattered thoughts in my brain.

When I'm driving, I have bursts of ideas of what I am going to write about.

I have an amazing memory (scary, actually), yet somehow by the time I get to my computer, I remember nothing.

I suppose this is completely normal.

Trying to manage being there at the hospital, being here at home, keeping life as stable as possible for my precious daughter, it is hard.

But, it is life. It's the life I signed up for when I married my husband, and I wouldn't do things any other way.

Sadly, test upon test does not seem to give us answers as to what actually caused all of this. As I said, my MIL is a very unhealthy woman. She has many things already against her, but she also has many things going for her.

So, given her stable status over the last few days, we remain cautiously optimistic that she will bounce back from this soon.

She is only 75 years old, which in this day and age is young.

But she is old.

The last 10 years of her life have been filled with surgeries, a heart attack, and being fairly bed-ridden.

Sadly, she is a glass half-empty kind of person, and has not done much to help herself get better.

I hope that with the help of her family, she'll be able to see that there is so much left to live for, and that we're all here to help her in any way we can.

But, she needs to accept that help, and also do the work she needs to put in.

I pray that soon we'll hear the news that she's being transferred to a regular medical floor.

And then I pray we can get through to her and make her see how much life is worth living instead of giving up, as I fear she's already done.

She is far too young to spend the rest of her life in bed, accepting things without fighting to regain at least some of the life she still has left in her.

18 Fabulous Replies:

Julie said...

Our thoughts are with you, Daddy and MH! Let us know if there is anything you need.

Heather @ boy, girl, and a pug said...

I wondered where you had been! Sorry about your MIL. I'll be thinking and praying for you guys.


Liza said...

Just to let you know again I am thinking of you and hoping everyone is ok!

Chelle said...

Sending lots of prayers to you all. I had been wondering where you were...


Melissa said...

aww, Rach, so sorry to hear about your MIL! I'll be praying that she finds the strength and will to get better!


beth said...

I am so sorry to hear that you your family are going through this. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

Candy said...


there are so many in my church who are going through this. Sometimes I wonder how I can PREVENT this while I'm young.

my prayers are with you.

Elaine A. said...

I'm so sorry to hear that about your MIL. I really hope she can get better both physically and in her heart. : )

Glad to see you back...

Laural Out Loud said...

I'm so sorry! You already had a full schedule- I can only imagine how busy you must be now. I hope she pulls through and learns to love life again.

Dana said...

I really do hope they can figure out exactly what's wrong with her. My own MIL is very similar (although about 25 years younger).

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Dana said...

Sorry my computer decided to go crazy on me and post the same thing 3 times. I guess I helped your ego a little huh?

Wendi said...

I have missed you.
So sorry to hear about your MIL.
Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.

x said...

Sending hugs to your family! MY DIL was recently in the hospital recently and we all helped her and she eventually recovered.

I even surprised her with a gorgeous diamond necklace from since she's such a special part of the family. Thankfully she is fine now. Prayers are with your MIL!

Alicia said...

Just wanted to say thanks for stopping by! I am sorry to hear about your MIL and I will keep her in my prayers.

Leslie said...

Just wanted to let you know that you and your family are in my thoughts and in my prayers! Thanks for stopping by my blog, keep in touch!

Lipstick said...

Thanks for the update! I have been thinking about you and your family.